I'm not doing this well.
Really I'm not.
I was sitting yesterday in the chair talking with my assistant and
she looked up in exasperation and said, "Do you have any idea
what is keeping me from getting my work done?"
No tell me
IT"S YOU
I laughed.
She then told me that she told her husband the other night that
although her work is almost done, she was pretty sure I'd pay her
to sit there just so there would be someone in the office.
She's right.
I hate being there alone, and since she is working very very part
time, when she is not in the office, I basically get nothing done.
Just about zip.
I'm almost functionally useless these days.
I don't deal well with the perpetual state of unknown.
Even though there is work to be done, and a whole lot of money to
be made, I'm slacking like you cannot believe.
I can't believe it.
I can't engage, I can't focus, I can hardly get anything done.
I like having a plan, and a plan b and a plan c, and then getting
to work on one or the other already.
Just don't make me spin my wheels, because all the gears are falling
apart and nothing is working.
I'm feeling lost and I'm also tired of coming home to an empty
house.
Law school or not. That makes a difference, probably on what house
we buy, and perhaps where we live.
When's the house going to sell? Will the house sell?
How much will we get?
When does the office condo 1 sell? Will it sell, yadda. How about
the other one?
The Dr who is renting wants to extend the lease. I told him no,
not for another year. I don't want to be stuck with an empty office
to rent next year.
But the rent is good.
Sigh
The waiting is not.